burned out...on religion.

Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion?

Come to me. Get away with me and you will recover your life.

I'll show you how to take a real rest.

Walk with me and work with me- watch how I do it.

Learn the unforced rhythms of grace.

I won't lay anything ill-fitting on you.

Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly.
Matthew 11:28-30 (The Message)

i am about to get pretty vulnerable here, but this verse is how i have been feeling a lot lately. i am just so burned out. jesus isn't that exciting to me right now and it has nothing to do with jesus and everything to do with me. one of my bosses this summer, brooke, used this verse when we would do holy yoga and it would always resonate with me. i think it is because i often feel burned out and tired. it may be because as much as i am an introvert, i am also an adrenaline junky, never wanting to stop moving around and getting involved in "stuff," because when i do i realize i am just really really lonely and really really longing for companionship. and as much as i know i am supposed to "go to God" and be found in him, i really really don't want to right now. i know all of the right things to say and do, but i know other people feel this way and never feel like they can tell someone for fear of being looked down on for being a "bad christian." all i know is even in my weakness, God is strong. I know my God is a God of peace and rest.

i am moody. oswald chambers always challenges me in my moods.

"there are certain things we must not pray about- moods for instance. moods never go by praying, moods go by kicking. a mood nearly always has its seat in the physical condition, not in the moral. it is a continual effort not to listen to the moods which arise from a physical condition, never submit to them for a second. we have to take ourselves by the scruff of the neck and shake ourselves, and we will find that we can do what we said we could not. the curse with most of us is that we won't. the christian life is one of incarnate spiritual pluck."

so here is to kicking my mood in the butt. let me know how your butt kicking goes

(if you need it)

til next time,

gambetron