it's all my fault dave bazan

I finished school this past week. I have been working custodial at my church to make money, because money is tight.
As I was listening to my ipod to drown out the fact that i was cleaning toilets, dave bazan came on with his song, "hard to be"

read the lyrics:











you've heard the story, you know how it goes
once upon a garden, we were lovers with no clothes
fresh from the soil, we were beautiful and true
in control of our emotions, til we ate the poison fruit

and now it is
hard to be a decent human being

wait just a minute, you expect me to believe
that all this misbehaving grew from one enchanted tree
and helpless to fight it we should all be satisfied
with this magical explanation for why the living die

childbirth is painful, toil to grow our food
ignorance made us hungry
information made us no good
every burden misunderstood

so i swung my tassel to the left side of my cap
knowing after graduation there would be no going back
and no congratulations from my faithful family
some of whom are already fasting to intercede for me
because its hard to be a decent human being

a little bit of background. dave bazan used to be a christian, now he is struggling with his faith because of hurt from the church and questions he cannot answer.

its my fault dave bazan.
its my fault that you don't believe.
i don't represent my God well enough
i don't love enough
i don't do enough....
but as much as i fail, it isn't about me.
its about JESUS.

its hard to be a decent human being.
decent? none of us can even pretend like we are decent. we are scum.

Jesus is King, we are His instruments.

Anyone who is ever been hurt by the church or by Christians. I am truly sorry, from the bottom of my heart.

But stop looking at me.

Look to Jesus. He will never let you down.

Katie